A lesson learnt
Being ugly is my fault? Being fat and I like it? Because of all these, ur treatment is so different. What is this? U want me to do plastic surgery?! I rly hate u. A lot. How can your one small action hurt me so much. I didnt know u was this kind of person until today. But why cant i lose feelings for u. I tried. i failed. I tried agn. And i failed agn. Ur treatment towards 01, 09, 12, 14. Unfair. They are pretty so they get all the benefits? Class leader. They get. Friends. They get. Anything they want. They get. So only being pretty means living. So now i am not a human and u cant treat me like normal. U only 排擠me. Telling me u need do smth and cant talk. Instead, u are commenting, liking, stalking, flirting with the pretty little girls. Sorry luhh. I am naturally ugly so i cant get friends, good treatment from teachers, priveleges and love. Until today, idk what is LOVE. 14 yrs of life. Is it just hurt and not sweet? LOVE IS NVR SWEET. ITS ONLY TORTURE. Thanks for teaching me this lesson. Whenever I am injured, no one cares. When these people get a small cut, u keep ask of they are alright. Fine. I've seen the real u.

Thanks for letting me grow into someone stronger.
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Facebook National Day medley
At this very moment I am not okay. Not okay at all. U posted a National day medley. U sang songs that u liked together. U even tagged the "Quadruplets" and many many ppl who gave u encouragements, saying this song is dedicated to them. But what about me? I typed such a long encouragement. Well, maybe that wasnt an encouragement to you. I knew you would not care about what I send. Maybe you dont even read it and just reply. What hurts me most is that girl also like you. But why are u still so nice to her? I like you too. U treat me like trash. U know i seriously feel i should just disappear whenever i am close to you? Even when I see you? U dont know how I feel. Why must you treat me like this? You can ruin my good mood I had for the whole day. Why are you so capable? You can hurt me so much. Now I know. What I say doesnt matter to you. I spend such a long time typing everything out and u dont consider it a encouragement? When others just say "Good luck" and u tag them, saying the song is dedicated to them? Fine. I am really hurt. Are you happy now? Or maybe you want me to die...

Really really hurt because of you...
Blogged @ 7:19 AM
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A normal day
Today was a normal day. When I say normal, it is really normal. I didnt gossip, didnt play, didnt chat much and lastly, didnt talk to him or her. I am going to do a project with her tomorrow. Haish... Dont really feel like meeting her yet even though I have recovered a bit. She said she might not be able to meet us for the project tomorrow as she has to meet HIM and the other two girls for the dance tomorrow... Really sad. She may not be able to do a project just because she has to do a dance?! Okay nvm... I am still hurt because of the two of them.. Maybe not hurt by her, disappointed? Ya, will have to meet the two of them tomorrow. They don't know what happened. So, I have to pretend nothing has happen and continue laugh with them until I am fully recovered.


I am really sorry for loving you too much..
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Birthday celebration on 7 July
On my birthday, I was really happy because my fren created a surprise birthday party for me. I was touched and happy. She also invited the guy i like. He bought a present for me. Specially for me. I also had a cake and had lots of fun. Although it was awkward at first, i had lots of fun later. I really miss the sweet u, the nice-to-me you. Read the previous post and u will understand...
我願意為妳奮不顧身，
我願意為妳放棄所有。
我願意為妳付出一切，
我願意為妳改變習慣。
那麼，妳願意嗎？


Missing you :'o(
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Betrayed and hurt
I have been liking this guy for a very long time. My good fren, also my most trusted fren in secondary school is gg to have this national day performance together with him and two other girls. I hate this. How can he be with so many girls and no guys? They spent lots and lots of time together. Practices, rehearsals. To make things worse, my this good fren told me she and him are gg to sing a song together. Why her but not the other two girls? Yesterday, they had a full-dress rehearsal in the hall. I decided to secretly go and watch them with one of my fren. Indeed, they sang a song together. And the other two girls are just background dancers. They sang reach out for the skies. They look just like a couple. They two came out first and facing each other, singing . How can this happen? The two of them looked at each other throughout the whole dance. Im hurt, i cried. I suddenly remembered what the girl told me. "Im not that kind of bitch who will snatch my best fren's crush", "I would have liked him if u didnt". These words kept repeating and repeating in my mind. She said this when the two of them wasnt close. Which means she cant control her feelings but like him now. She is now the "bitch" who snatched my crush. She drank and love my favourite and also his favourite drink even though she disliked it last time. I feel so betrayed. What should i do? She betrayed me. He hurt me. I still have to see them dance together on national day. U two are home econ partners and are still gg to cook together. Be nervous together. Practice cooking together. I feel like dying.
在乎才會亂想，
我常常亂想卻不敢說，
我怕一說，
你就會反感...，
就會想離開我.....

Really a lousy day...
Blogged @ 9:47 PM
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Best day ever?
Today, I am really happy. Firstly, I solved my problem with another girl and actually it was all a misunderstanding. We are now back to friends like how we used to be :) Secondly, he invited me to join his group for CIP. I was so happy and excited. He is just too gentleman. <3 He also asked me for a plaster when I am beside her(the girl I think he likes)when that girl definitely has one. However, I felt a little wasted as he asked for a second one then I hesitated and said I check first. I did this because I thought I only had one. He thought I did not want to give him and he said nvm... After that, I checked my bag and found 3 plasters stuck in between my books == I could have given him one more T.T I am a little sad because I was ignored by the CIP group due to the girl I mentioned first, but I find it alright as long as he does not give all his attention to her, which he did not <3 It was just the other boys who were obsessed with her. I DONT CARE!!!! cos I also dont like them. U are all I care <3
我所愛的不只是你的優點，
你的全部及缺點我通通愛，
我更是愛到骨子裡面去了。

I cried but smiled today :'D
Blogged @ 7:59 AM
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I love you
Yay! You messaged me today! It is the second time you starting our conversation. U started by saying my name and ended this conversation with "C you tmrw" You also told me a lot about you. But maybe not a lot to you and you tell the others more, but I am really elated. I know you think this is just a normal thing. But it is the first time I got this from you. U won't know how I feel. In this morning till evening, I cried and was sad because I was backstabbed by this girl I trusted a lot a lot. She is almost the second person I trust the most. She treated me well, but actually she hates me and scolds and talks bad about me behind my back. When she have troubles, she will always come and look for me. Anyway, after I saw your message, I immediately from want to cry change to smiles :) Thanks for treating me well and making me smile, at least for this time when I am really really hurt, disappointed and sad.
你知不知道，你一句不經意的話。
就影響了我一整天的心情..

You made my day today <3
Blogged @ 9:17 AM
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